Tuesday, 10 October 2017

World Mental Health Day 

It upsets me that in this current day we arestill having to fight to have our illnesses taken seriously. If we went to the doctor with a lump it would be taken seriously, so why are we still dancing around the topic of mental health when it's a killer just like a terminal disease. Its a silent killer, there's no obvious physical symptoms which can be treated, it's all in the brain, which still is a vital organ in our body that needs to be taken care of. 

My mental health issues have ruined so many possibly good opportunities for me, which results in me ending up feeling more down on myself. 

Imagine being so anxious about something or nothing that you feel like you actually may physically throw up, or your hands being extremely clammy yet full of pins & needles, or going through cold sweats, heart palpitations, unnormal breathing patterns. Thats something i experience a lot due to suffering from an anxiety disorder. Anxiety isn't pretty or a new trend for everyone to jump on board with which does seem to be happening a lot. If you actually suffered with an anxiety disorder then you wouldn't be glamourising it on social media or to your friends for the fun of it. Suffering with an anxiety disorder can be crippling. Imagine feeling so anxious about leaving your house that you end up cancelling anything important you were supposed to do. I've been there. It ain't cute, in the slightest. 

Depression is a funny one, it tends to come hand in hand with anxiety or one will bring on the other. One minuet you can feel great and be really on top of things the next you can be so down and in severe cases to the point where self harm becomes a way of dealing with these heavy thoughts or even worst an attempt at your own life.

What motivates me to be advocate for mental health is the fact that there is still a stigma attached to it, despite mental illness being a common thing for people to suffer, theres still people who aren't open to talking about it, because it makes them feel awkward which has a knock on effect for people who a dealing with it, because we see that others don't want to talk about it so we don't; and thats extremely damaging. 

The rate of suicide attempts / the amount of men who genuinely do succeed in ending their own life is much higher than women, because women will be more open about talking, where as men are programmed to be the 'strong' one and masculinity can be the main cause of men bottling everything up to the point it gets too much and ending their own lives seems like the only option. 

As a society, women & men should feel comfortable talking about issues they're going through, we should feel comfortable reaching out for help. Mental Illness is not a 'bad' thing, it shouldn't be made out to be an embarrassing topic which people are made to stay mute on.

As i said earlier mental illness is a silent killer. 

For anyone reading this who may follow me on social media or may have just come across this post because of the hashtags, please don't ever feel like you need to go through this alone. If you feel you have no one, or your scared to open up to someone close to you, i'm always here. 

"Our brains are sick but that's okay."  - Twenty One Pilots 

Be kind. 

Reach out to someone if you think they're struggling. You never know what someone may be keeping to themselves and that one conversation may be their decider to wether or not they seek help or they end their own lives.

I'm sending you all my love & positive thoughts. You can get through this, you can stop letting your mental health control you. It may seem hopeless at the moment but you can do it.